i had this wonderful dream last night...

that i had my anak dara shape back

and my weight was back at 50kg!!!

owh..

what a wonderful dream it was!!

i just cant wait to start wearing my PB back!! ;)

xoxo

ramblings on a Thursday morning

hubs been away for a week and a half now...

it was hard the first few days, with Aqil being sick and all... I did have a couple of meltdowns..where i just couldnt stop crying...mostly because i was exhausted, physically and mentally.... i mean, it was hard, feeling down and not having him to talk to... i couldnt reach him because there was no cellphone line there... i had to wait for him to call me, which sometimes i miss because i was in the toilet, or taking my bath... it was frustrating... i know i should not be complaining..i know its work..plus i said it was ok for him to go since we needed the extra money anyway...what with the new baby and the moving....it was just logic for him to go....but well...it was still hard..

BUT..i am thankful that I have my family..they have been a huge support system...mom is working, so she gets up as early as 4am just to cook my meals for me, and dad has been going to work late everyday even though I know he has tons of reports to finish ...just to make sure Aqil gets his bath and some time for me to get mine..and then making sure I have everything I need..and lil sis..ahh..lil sis...she's on her school holiday now and she's been attending to my every needs...she prepare my meals and bring it up to me, breakfast, lunch and dinner...and she makes my hot drinks..she turns on the tv and gets me the remote (ok, i sound spoiled! haha.no..this is when Aqil is breastfeeding and i forgot to take the remote before i start breastfeeding..)...well basically lil sis does everything that i ask her...and i am so thankful she's around!;)

I am so grateful that I have such a wonderful family.... thank you mom, dad and lil sis for all ur sacrifices.... i love u guys so much.. ;)

Aqil with his Tok Sam ;)

xoxo

woke up with a smile ;)

woke up this morning with 2 good news

farahnadz, my basketball buddy during high school gave birth to a healthy 3.63kg baby boy at 8pm 15/3 ;) (berat almost the same as aqils! i guess baka basketballers kot??lol!)

and

uyun, my uni-mate, wife to one of my really2 good friend, also gave birth to a healthy 3.2kg baby boy at 1.05am 16/3 ;)

I am so so so so happy for both of them and sangat2 tak sabar nak habis pantang to go visit them...

congrats you two!!

xoxo

aqil sidqi

day 1 : he looks exactly like his uncle amir!

day 3 : first day under the photo

day 3 : under the photo treatment

day 4 : in daddy's arm

day 5 : waiting for the blood test

day 5: finally discharged. blood reading 227. first day wearing his own clothes!

day 5 : first night in his own crib

day 5 : "i love my bed mama!"

day 7 : his favorite pose. seriously. he does this every time.

day 7: caught him smiling! he's just so cute!

day 7: like sinchan no?

day 8: smiling in his sleep.mimpi ape laa agaknya..

day 9: daddy was force to wake up and jaga u eyh aqil...huhu

day 10: 2nd time under the photo treatment.

day 11: discharged and happy on mama's bed. ;)

day 12: alhamdulillah...sihat dah anak mama...n happily sleeping in his own crib..

xoxo

eclipse

source: OfficialTwilightFilm


OMG!!! how hot n super cute is Jacob???

Definitely Team Jacob!!






xoxo

the birth of ali mirza jr

tuesday 23rd Feb 2010

12.15 midnight - felt my first contraction, didnt really realize it was a contraction until after the 2-3rd time of contraction..took out my little book and recorded the time.. 25 minutes to 1 contraction..hmm..still got time.. remember the nurse told me it must be 10 minutes to 1..baru g hospital

4.30 am - went to the toilet... and... blood... i was like..should i wait..or should i go to the hospital...woke up hubs... went to mom's room..asked what should i do... mom said go hospital..sbb my first pregnancy kan..taktau ape nak expect..

5.30 am - off to hkl

6.30 am - register, checked by the doctor - no opening

7.00 am - warded

4.30 pm - checked by the doctor again- still no opening

7.oo pm - discharged from hkl (sgt laa ramai org sampai wad penuh..even yg dah ade 2cm opening pun die hantar balik..prioritize yg betul2 nak bersalin...)

wednesday, 24th feb 2010

thruout the night - contraction. contraction.contraction. sakit. sakit. sakit.

4.00 am - contraction 1 to 10 to 25 seconds

4.30 am - mom was ready to take me to private hospital if gov still send me back home..mak punya tak puas hati sbb hkl hantar balik...huhu...kesian tgk me tahan sakit...sweet kan mak..naluri seorang ibu (which i understand now..) hehe...thanks mom...

5.00 am - decided to go to selayang hospital after mom did a series of calls to the private hospital

5.45 am - checked by the doc @hospital selayang. 1 cm opening (ok..thats a start!)

7.00 am - checked again , 3 cm opening (wow! that was fast...alhamdulillah) had to wait at the waiting area sbb wad sume penuh..mmg menahan sakit yg amat laa sbb kene duduk tunggu kan...dah laa tak cukup tido..ngntuk takyah ckp laa..

10.00 am - still 3 cm (hmm..lambat laa pulak) , masa ni mak n hubs was waiting with me kat waiting room...asked mom to go back first sbb kesian tgk mak mcm letih jer..but she insisted to wait....

12.00 pm - 4 cm !! finally to the labor room !!! but before that, doctor inject ubat bagi buang air besar...i went straight to the toilet right after die masukkan ubat..giler cepat ok! then die suruh baring n doctor wanted to pecakan air ketumban..but tangan doc tu pendek sgt..alih2 staff nurse yg buat.. sakit? sakit contraction lagi kot..

1.15 pm - masuk labor room...sakit amat2!! mase tu ingat ayat qursi jer.tak ingat dah bende lain..punya sakit..then hubs masuk... sat beside me..guided me baca surah2 n ayat2....

2.30 pm - ade nurse masuk nak tanya mau epidural ke tak..die kata normally diorang akan offer untuk yg 1st pregnancy... walaupun before ni mmg determine takmo epi..konon2 dah biase jatuh sini sana n dah biasa sakit..boleh tahan laa kan..rupa2 tak...i just couldnt stand the pain mase tuh..so tanpa pk panjang..trus angguk jer...

2.45 pm - masuk epidural.. it wasnt really that painful sbb contraction lagi sakit...plus the doctor was very2 friendly..n funny... so didnt really felt the pain mase die masukkan epi tuh

4.30 pm - doctor dtg check opening... 5cm!! wahh...lambatnyer...!! 4 hours and only 1cm opening..?? i felt like crying...ops..i did cry i think...mom datang teman me for a while...sembang sket2...i couldnt remember what we talked about.. i only remember the pain.. (yes..even with epi..it was still painful..maybe not as painful as not taking the epi..but still rasa sakit nyaaa....)

8.30 pm -again, doctor masuk check.. 6cm!!! i was like...ur kidding right??? only 1cm???? 4 hourss!!! doctor said, they give another 2 hours...if still opening kecik, prepare for surgery...

10.30pm - 8cm...!!! ok... im sooooo ready for C-sec !! but no, doc said...i give u another 2 hours.....lawak ke hape..?? i was like begging the doc nak bedah jer...mase tu contration cam sgtlaa kerap..nak bace ape2 pun dah tak daya....tapi doctor tak bagi..die kata sayang sbb dah bukak 8...huh...

12.30 am -10 cm...finally!!! doctor kata bila rase cam nak terberak tu pushh sket2..since sbb me on epi..so i wont feel the urge nak push sgt...so start teran sket2...

12.45 am - 3 doctors, 2 nurses.... the real pushing begins... turns out i was so out of energy to push (my last meal was at 7am, 2 keping roti jer)..doctor had to use the vacum to suck the baby out...i was like whatever...just get the baby out please...sakitnya..masyaAllah...never in my whole life had i ever ever experienced that kind of pain..

1.20 am - doc put the baby on me....mak aih...beratnya!! hehe.. 3.68 kg people!! semangat anak ku...i didnt really get to really look at my baby..because he wasnt crying the doctor quickly took my baby off me and out of the room.. i was so worried he didnt cry..but then a nurse came in and said.." anak awak kluar2 jer tido ..tapi dah tepuk2...dah nangis dah.."...fuhhh...alhamdulillah...lega...but i didnt get to see my baby until the next day sbb he was sent to NICU sbb kepala die injured 5 cm long...sian die..

after that sempat sembang ngan the doc when he was stitching me up (siapa kata tak rase sakit mase jahit tu?? sakit yerrr) huhu....told the doctor.. after that experience...nak sorang jer anak..tak sanggup dah...then he laughed..he said.. "i bet u puan, by 2 years time i'll see u on this table again..." ...hehehe...well...we'll see about that k...;p

lepas tu, everything was a blur...i was in and out of conscious... jap tido..then sedar2 hubs was beside me..i think i tried to smile and make a conversation, but i remember hubs asked me to sleep...i did ask bout our baby..but i cant remember hubs response....

anyways...the next thing i remember, mom was kissing my forehead at 6ish am and i was already in the ward...and all i felt was pain all over..and i did not have the energy to move at all...

slept until 7 something until the doctor came to examine me..then slept again until 8 am when the nurse came in and forced me to bangun n g toilet..giler garang tapi paham kene kuatkan semangat n takleh buat lembik...huhu...

hubs arrived at 10am and took me to see my baby in NICU..s.edih jer tgk baby penuh ngan tiub sini sana..n kepala die bengkak...tak boleh nak angkat sbb kepala die sakit..so tgk jer laa die terbaring kat situ ..sedihh...tahan nangis but tak daya...

stayed in the NICU for 5 days... mula2 nak monitor his head, after that die start kuning which is normal for baby yg kluar dengan luka...but masuk balik NICU on the 10th day sbb kuning die naik...sedih tgk die terbogel bawah lampu tu....

but now alhamdulillah die dah makin ok..reading jaundice pun dah turun...mak die pun dah stabil..so baru boleh nak sambung berblog.. huhu..

fuhh...panjang membebel...but i guess i needed to record this experience...sementara masih fresh di ingatan...but i doubt i'll ever forget it...;)

so lastly...may i present to you... the apple of my eye....my little hero...

AQIL SIDQI BIN MOHD ALI MIRZA

his first night in his own crib.. 2/3/2010

xoxo

waiting

Now in wad hkl

Please pray for me and little A

;)

Xoxo

overdue

little A is still in there..

following mommy all around KL

pavilion for karaoke

ikea,OU,midvalley for window shopping

(keje tak larat..jalan2 larat! hahaha)

no laa..people say must walk a lot wutt.....

any signs yet?

nope. nada.

this week last, then induce if die takmo klua jugak...hmm...

hope can deliver before 1/3.. hubs going to Kalimantan (again) for 2 weeks after that...

i want him here with me...but if cannot..then what to do kan...

hmm....

k laa...getting ready to go out..hehehe...berjalan lagiii.....

;p

ps: thanks for those yg call/sms bertanya khabar...sayang kamu! ;)

xoxo

got 5 minutes break from work..

nope. not on leave yet.

yes. still at work.

why?

the person replacing me during my maternity leave got in a fight and now on medical leave for a week!

there's 2 major cut off this week, which apparently, nobody else knows how to do the work.
[i was on half day leave for my checkup yesterday, and was on the phone (almost) the whole time to explain step by step how to do the task- stopped only because my batery went kaput..]

lastly- i came in early this morning, just to find out they did it completely wrong and i had to re-do the whole task again..alhamdulillah..after how many days of error error error.....managed to successfully uploaded the darn thing... [i also blame the BP for giving out instructions of amendments so late in the evening! -suka nak complaint buat keje tak betul laa lambat laa..padahal kasik info sume lambat..then how???]

still coming to work tomorrow [maybe] but definitely going to take MC on Friday...i could hardly walk properly today..sakit dowh...!! [is it normal or me too manja??] hmmm...


LBNL, bersalin ke tak next week..i am starting my maternity leave after CNY...i dont care...tak larat.. hehhee...


little A, kuar laa cepat... ;)

paksa cuti?

Early morning.

Manager: aisyah, bila nk cuti ni?
Me: ntah laa..baby syiok dok dlm perut..
Manager: sy tak tanye bile baby keluar..sy tanye bile nak cuti..
Me: err..baby klua, cuti laa..
Manager: mengarut jer budak ni

*****

During PEAP.

Manager: why u don't want to take early leave?
Me: I want to save my leave for my confinement.
Manager: I understand u want to spend more time with ur baby, but u can take annual leave right? My main concern is for the boys in ur team, they are all stikk single..no experience..nnti panic if suddenly ur waterbag pecah..
Me: .....
Manager: you cannot think about urself. U want to be a leader right. You must think about other people also..its not always about you..
Me: (ouchhh!!!)
Manager: plus, klu perut awak belum turun I'm not that worried. Ni perut dah turun..pastu tgk awak jalan mcm susah jerr
Me: eh? Perut dah turun ke?
Manager: yelaa..nampak..
Me: ok la..cuti next week..


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So I guess..I'll start my maternity leave next week..hmmmm...agak2 sempat shopping lagi ke?(Ada hati!!!) Keeee..menjahit 2-3 bende lagi..hmmmm..




Xoxo