Wednesday, March 31, 2010
* for those who dont know, PB is Premium Beautiful, a 3 piece corset that does wonders to your body! ;) *
after it feels like a lifetime of waiting...I'm finally back wearing my PB !!! yeay!! ;)
at first I was afraid that it wont fit me anymore, but.. alhamdulillah..i could still fit the pants and the corset (super yeay!! ) but not the bra -the cup doesnt fit since my sisters are still heavy with my son's food supply...so i guess i wont be wearing the bra anytime soon..but its ok...the sacrifice of a mother! hahahaha!!!
after only 3 days of wearing it..I could already see the changes...even hubs thinks I look smaller than before..haha! i wish!!! but actually not (yet) ! ;p ... I pointed out to hubs maybe he thinks that way is most likely because he hasnt seen me "small" in quite some time now..so..mmg nampak the obvious changes... but not as small as before...wait ye abang... i know you say u dont care if im big or small..but..I care!! give me 3 month or maybe 4 to get back my old shape! hehe..semangat nihh!!!
but I must say..I am happy to be back in my PB..it just makes me feel...wonderful!! it just holds everything at the right places and its so easy to wear berbanding the traditional bengkung which i had to tie back every few hours...urghh..
*cant wait to try on my ol jeans back!! mintak2 laa muat..;p*
Thursday, March 25, 2010
just read mom's blog... apparently Aqil is now 1 month old ( I am so occupied looking after him, I forgot the dates already..)
anyways...mom wrote a post all about the day Aqil was born... its so sweet and i want to share it with all of you..especially my little Aqil ( I mean when he knows how to read that is..hehe..)
I am torn between linking my mom's blog here or copy n paste what she wrote..hmm...
what the heck..i'll do both.. ;)
To my little hero,
This was written by your Tok Wan specially dedicated for you..;)
THURSDAY, MARCH 25, 2010
ps: Mom, if you're reading this... thank you...for everything...words just cannot describe how grateful I am to have you as my mother and how much I love you...
pss: dear aunties n uncles... I love you all too.... you guys are just simply the best..and I thank Allah for giving me such a wonderful family...
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
bila cerita bab berpantang ni..i must say i do not know much..
even skrg dalam pantang pun..i'll go.. "mom...can i do this..or can i eat that..??"
but what i do know is, lain orang lain cara pantang...
certain people pantang takleh makan sayur..
ade yg pantang takleh minum air bnyk..
ade pantang makan jamu, pki pilis n param or whatever
ade yg amek ubat herba cina or akar kayu..
well for me..
bab makan, i serah 100% to my mom...what she cooks i eat..sometimes i'll ask.. "eh...boleh ke saya makan ni.." because penah dengar orang ckp tak boleh certain things..but my mom ckp.."ok..kenapa tak boleh pulak.." i take sayur because my mom said itu sumber vitamin and it helps me move my bowels...pendek kata, my mom is not-so strict about my food..she said, makanan pantang ni ikut orang..u try..if u cannot then dont take..senang aje..which is logic actually..tapi ofcourse bende sejuk n berangin die tak bagi kan..but other than that...boleh...
and i drink a lot of plain water..and i take nescafe ginger n honey because it helps me "go" ... and it also keeps me warm too...people say nescafe angin..but alhamdulillah...setakat ni ok .. :)
i did have my urut session (4 times), but not bertungku because mom said tok ajah didnt let her bertungku dulu sbb takut salah buat or something...mom left me to decide either nak bertungku or not..since she didnt do it..so i decided i didnt want to bertungku..i tried only the first time..but after that taknak dah.. lagipun i do have this fobia when it involves hot objects eversince half of kaki melecur kene air panas masa standard 6 dulu...
for some unknown reason, i dont wear all the param pilis thingy (sbb mak tak kasik kot?) ntah.. but i do wear minyak panas n my bengkung...but i only wear my bengkung during the day..malam i tried once or twice ntah..tak bleh tido..i felt like i was suffocating.. so i opted not to wear malam..certain people pki 24/7..mmg salute laa!..but not me..i need my sleep...since now i try not to sleep during the day..nak biasakan diri sbb tak lama lagi keje kan...
and i'm not taking any jamu...mainly because the first few weeks Aqil had jaundice so the doctor advised not to take any jamu..then when Aqil is ok, mom said jamu takut panas effect baby (naik ruam2) , so tak makan laa...but i do take honey and bidadari to keep my body warm sbb mom said, tujuan jamu tu untuk blood circulation and something..the bio teacher in her was talking...i was like..ok..yes..yes..ok.... anything you say is good for me i take mommy! ;)
i sleep with the aircond on...because the weather now is soooooooo freaking hot!! i tried to not use the aircond the first week..but kesian aqil...he had rashes all over...so mom said..pasang jer...habis org putih tu negeri sejuk..macam mana...which well..make sense...as long as i keep my body warm..it should be ok...so i'm wearing super tebal socks and a really2 thick comforter.. so even the ac is on..i am sweating like crazy...asalkan aqil takde rashes..ok laa.. ;)
someone told me mase pantang kene basuh rambut everyday, then ikat rambut tinggi2 n ketat2...well..i've tried..but it doesnt work for me...dari dulu lagi i couldnt tie my hair when its wet..sakit kepala..n now mase pantang buat camtu lagiiii sakit kepala..
so what i'm trying to say here is....cara orang pantang tak sama...it doesnt work the same for everyone...so dont go say "kalau tak sayang badan buat laaa...makan laa....badan kita ni nak pakai lama....." likeeee little-miss-know-it-all.... its annoying and somehow rude i think...nak cakap..cakap elok2... like.. "klu boleh elakkan..kita tak tau effect macam mana kat badan kita nanti." sejuk laa sikit org yg mendengar.... we were taught budi bahasa dari kecik kannnnnn...
hmmmm...emo kejap pagi2 hari ni...huhu..taktau laa...org kata ape2 after pantang baru rase...bisa badan..lengoh2...but i am trying..and i am following ape mak saya ckp saya boleh n tak boleh...so i think i'm doing ok...just because cara u beza dari cara i...tak payah nak kondem2...tho i know it comes from the right place with the right niat..but bila cara ckp tu kasar..saya pun jadi macam tak boleh nak menerima....lumrah manusia..saya hanyalah insan biasa...chewahhh..
picture of the day :
aqil : rileks laa mama...aqil kan ade.. ;)
mommy loves you sweetheart!!! ;)
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
hubs been away for a week and a half now...
it was hard the first few days, with Aqil being sick and all... I did have a couple of meltdowns..where i just couldnt stop crying...mostly because i was exhausted, physically and mentally.... i mean, it was hard, feeling down and not having him to talk to... i couldnt reach him because there was no cellphone line there... i had to wait for him to call me, which sometimes i miss because i was in the toilet, or taking my bath... it was frustrating... i know i should not be complaining..i know its work..plus i said it was ok for him to go since we needed the extra money anyway...what with the new baby and the moving....it was just logic for him to go....but well...it was still hard..
BUT..i am thankful that I have my family..they have been a huge support system...mom is working, so she gets up as early as 4am just to cook my meals for me, and dad has been going to work late everyday even though I know he has tons of reports to finish ...just to make sure Aqil gets his bath and some time for me to get mine..and then making sure I have everything I need..and lil sis..ahh..lil sis...she's on her school holiday now and she's been attending to my every needs...she prepare my meals and bring it up to me, breakfast, lunch and dinner...and she makes my hot drinks..she turns on the tv and gets me the remote (ok, i sound spoiled! haha.no..this is when Aqil is breastfeeding and i forgot to take the remote before i start breastfeeding..)...well basically lil sis does everything that i ask her...and i am so thankful she's around!;)
I am so grateful that I have such a wonderful family.... thank you mom, dad and lil sis for all ur sacrifices.... i love u guys so much.. ;)
I am so grateful that I have such a wonderful family.... thank you mom, dad and lil sis for all ur sacrifices.... i love u guys so much.. ;)
Aqil with his Tok Sam ;)
Monday, March 15, 2010
woke up this morning with 2 good news
farahnadz, my basketball buddy during high school gave birth to a healthy 3.63kg baby boy at 8pm 15/3 ;) (berat almost the same as aqils! i guess baka basketballers kot??lol!)
uyun, my uni-mate, wife to one of my really2 good friend, also gave birth to a healthy 3.2kg baby boy at 1.05am 16/3 ;)
I am so so so so happy for both of them and sangat2 tak sabar nak habis pantang to go visit them...
congrats you two!!
Saturday, March 13, 2010
day 1 : he looks exactly like his uncle amir!
day 3 : first day under the photo
day 3 : under the photo treatment
day 4 : in daddy's arm
day 5 : waiting for the blood test
day 5: finally discharged. blood reading 227. first day wearing his own clothes!
day 5 : first night in his own crib
day 5 : "i love my bed mama!"
day 7 : his favorite pose. seriously. he does this every time.
day 7: caught him smiling! he's just so cute!
day 7: like sinchan no?
day 8: smiling in his sleep.mimpi ape laa agaknya..
day 9: daddy was force to wake up and jaga u eyh aqil...huhu
day 10: 2nd time under the photo treatment.
day 11: discharged and happy on mama's bed. ;)
day 12: alhamdulillah...sihat dah anak mama...n happily sleeping in his own crib..
Saturday, March 6, 2010
tuesday 23rd Feb 2010
12.15 midnight - felt my first contraction, didnt really realize it was a contraction until after the 2-3rd time of contraction..took out my little book and recorded the time.. 25 minutes to 1 contraction..hmm..still got time.. remember the nurse told me it must be 10 minutes to 1..baru g hospital
4.30 am - went to the toilet... and... blood... i was like..should i wait..or should i go to the hospital...woke up hubs... went to mom's room..asked what should i do... mom said go hospital..sbb my first pregnancy kan..taktau ape nak expect..
5.30 am - off to hkl
6.30 am - register, checked by the doctor - no opening
7.00 am - warded
4.30 pm - checked by the doctor again- still no opening
7.oo pm - discharged from hkl (sgt laa ramai org sampai wad penuh..even yg dah ade 2cm opening pun die hantar balik..prioritize yg betul2 nak bersalin...)
wednesday, 24th feb 2010
thruout the night - contraction. contraction.contraction. sakit. sakit. sakit.
4.00 am - contraction 1 to 10 to 25 seconds
4.30 am - mom was ready to take me to private hospital if gov still send me back home..mak punya tak puas hati sbb hkl hantar balik...huhu...kesian tgk me tahan sakit...sweet kan mak..naluri seorang ibu (which i understand now..) hehe...thanks mom...
5.00 am - decided to go to selayang hospital after mom did a series of calls to the private hospital
5.45 am - checked by the doc @hospital selayang. 1 cm opening (ok..thats a start!)
7.00 am - checked again , 3 cm opening (wow! that was fast...alhamdulillah) had to wait at the waiting area sbb wad sume penuh..mmg menahan sakit yg amat laa sbb kene duduk tunggu kan...dah laa tak cukup tido..ngntuk takyah ckp laa..
10.00 am - still 3 cm (hmm..lambat laa pulak) , masa ni mak n hubs was waiting with me kat waiting room...asked mom to go back first sbb kesian tgk mak mcm letih jer..but she insisted to wait....
12.00 pm - 4 cm !! finally to the labor room !!! but before that, doctor inject ubat bagi buang air besar...i went straight to the toilet right after die masukkan ubat..giler cepat ok! then die suruh baring n doctor wanted to pecakan air ketumban..but tangan doc tu pendek sgt..alih2 staff nurse yg buat.. sakit? sakit contraction lagi kot..
1.15 pm - masuk labor room...sakit amat2!! mase tu ingat ayat qursi jer.tak ingat dah bende lain..punya sakit..then hubs masuk... sat beside me..guided me baca surah2 n ayat2....
2.30 pm - ade nurse masuk nak tanya mau epidural ke tak..die kata normally diorang akan offer untuk yg 1st pregnancy... walaupun before ni mmg determine takmo epi..konon2 dah biase jatuh sini sana n dah biasa sakit..boleh tahan laa kan..rupa2 tak...i just couldnt stand the pain mase tuh..so tanpa pk panjang..trus angguk jer...
2.45 pm - masuk epidural.. it wasnt really that painful sbb contraction lagi sakit...plus the doctor was very2 friendly..n funny... so didnt really felt the pain mase die masukkan epi tuh
4.30 pm - doctor dtg check opening... 5cm!! wahh...lambatnyer...!! 4 hours and only 1cm opening..?? i felt like crying...ops..i did cry i think...mom datang teman me for a while...sembang sket2...i couldnt remember what we talked about.. i only remember the pain.. (yes..even with epi..it was still painful..maybe not as painful as not taking the epi..but still rasa sakit nyaaa....)
8.30 pm -again, doctor masuk check.. 6cm!!! i was like...ur kidding right??? only 1cm???? 4 hourss!!! doctor said, they give another 2 hours...if still opening kecik, prepare for surgery...
10.30pm - 8cm...!!! ok... im sooooo ready for C-sec !! but no, doc said...i give u another 2 hours.....lawak ke hape..?? i was like begging the doc nak bedah jer...mase tu contration cam sgtlaa kerap..nak bace ape2 pun dah tak daya....tapi doctor tak bagi..die kata sayang sbb dah bukak 8...huh...
12.30 am -10 cm...finally!!! doctor kata bila rase cam nak terberak tu pushh sket2..since sbb me on epi..so i wont feel the urge nak push sgt...so start teran sket2...
12.45 am - 3 doctors, 2 nurses.... the real pushing begins... turns out i was so out of energy to push (my last meal was at 7am, 2 keping roti jer)..doctor had to use the vacum to suck the baby out...i was like whatever...just get the baby out please...sakitnya..masyaAllah...never in my whole life had i ever ever experienced that kind of pain..
1.20 am - doc put the baby on me....mak aih...beratnya!! hehe.. 3.68 kg people!! semangat anak ku...i didnt really get to really look at my baby..because he wasnt crying the doctor quickly took my baby off me and out of the room.. i was so worried he didnt cry..but then a nurse came in and said.." anak awak kluar2 jer tido ..tapi dah tepuk2...dah nangis dah.."...fuhhh...alhamdulillah...lega...but i didnt get to see my baby until the next day sbb he was sent to NICU sbb kepala die injured 5 cm long...sian die..
after that sempat sembang ngan the doc when he was stitching me up (siapa kata tak rase sakit mase jahit tu?? sakit yerrr) huhu....told the doctor.. after that experience...nak sorang jer anak..tak sanggup dah...then he laughed..he said.. "i bet u puan, by 2 years time i'll see u on this table again..." ...hehehe...well...we'll see about that k...;p
lepas tu, everything was a blur...i was in and out of conscious... jap tido..then sedar2 hubs was beside me..i think i tried to smile and make a conversation, but i remember hubs asked me to sleep...i did ask bout our baby..but i cant remember hubs response....
anyways...the next thing i remember, mom was kissing my forehead at 6ish am and i was already in the ward...and all i felt was pain all over..and i did not have the energy to move at all...
slept until 7 something until the doctor came to examine me..then slept again until 8 am when the nurse came in and forced me to bangun n g toilet..giler garang tapi paham kene kuatkan semangat n takleh buat lembik...huhu...
hubs arrived at 10am and took me to see my baby in NICU..s.edih jer tgk baby penuh ngan tiub sini sana..n kepala die bengkak...tak boleh nak angkat sbb kepala die sakit..so tgk jer laa die terbaring kat situ ..sedihh...tahan nangis but tak daya...
stayed in the NICU for 5 days... mula2 nak monitor his head, after that die start kuning which is normal for baby yg kluar dengan luka...but masuk balik NICU on the 10th day sbb kuning die naik...sedih tgk die terbogel bawah lampu tu....
but now alhamdulillah die dah makin ok..reading jaundice pun dah turun...mak die pun dah stabil..so baru boleh nak sambung berblog.. huhu..
fuhh...panjang membebel...but i guess i needed to record this experience...sementara masih fresh di ingatan...but i doubt i'll ever forget it...;)
so lastly...may i present to you... the apple of my eye....my little hero...
AQIL SIDQI BIN MOHD ALI MIRZA
his first night in his own crib.. 2/3/2010