thinking out loud

Its 2am and I'm wide awake. Already in bed tho, trying to sleep but I keep thinking about things.lots of things..and I dunno why..but I feel like writing it all down..and here is the only place I can think of..

I was thinking about this business. about all the people I've met doing this business..mmg betul org ckp..manusia ni banyak ragam...sometimes I get frustated when people don't have the same opinion or thinking like I do..buy then I think again..its actually vice versa...they must be thinking the same thing as I am..why I have such diff opinions on things than they do..the world is like that...rambut sama hitam tapi hati lain2...I know that I can except that fact but sometimes its hard to get others to understand the same...

For me, its ok if you don't want to join the business..hey its your life..u can do anything with it..its your decision to make...but please do understand that diong the business is my decision for my life..why nak critic? U not doing bisnes is ur choice and me doing business is my choice.fullstop.I can respect ur desicions why can't u respect mine? U don't want to be friends just because I joined this business.then so be it..if that's the case then ur not actually a friend to begin with, so losing a friend or two is not a big deal coz I canr say that they are truly friends anyways.

What I really don't get tho is when some people let others to make the decision for them..I've met people who really wants and need to do the business...but then..the parents say no, the husband says no, the friends say no..then they end up not joining..merely because everybody else says no when actually they know deep inside that they really want this..

Don't get me wrong.I have full respect for my parents and I do ask them for advice, but at the end of the day the decisions are mine... my father always tell me "awak jangan buat ni untuk mak ayah, buat ni untuk awak..nnti ayah mati, ayah takde nak tolong awak.." Harsh. But very true.. Sometimes I get very uncomfortable when my dad talks like that.but I am actually lucky.my father does not protect me from getting hurt or from this ugly world but he let's me bleed and patches me up afterwards..let me learn my mistakes by myself but be there when I am down..and I know he'll support me no matter what...he's actually teaching me life lessons by letting me experience for myself...so i know how to think for myself..making the right decisions for myself because he knows, if he teaches me to rely on him on every single thing..i wont be able to survive if someday, he wont be there for me to rely on...

and as my husband..another blessing from Allah..i am so grateful that he has been supporting me from day one..sure we have our ups and downs..but we always try to communicate what we think and feel as often as we could...let everything be in the open so that any problems could be discussed and be solved..not ignoring the problems... ingat lagi, when i was so scared to tender my notice so that i could focus on this business..hubs ckp..." alaa..paling teruk pun kene istihar bankrupt..bukan mati pun...if u feel strongly about this..u must try it..jgn let it be one of ur what-if's...terpk2 and menyesal bila dah tgk org lain berjaya...bisnes ni actuAlly trial and error...if one way doesnt work,try another way..." for me this is what a husband should be like,,supportive...bukan kondem tak berenti..masak tak betul,,iron baju tak betul..belum buat aoe2 lagi..semua pun tak boleh..semua pun tak betul...but then again..lain org lain ragam kan,,

and then comes the friends...hmmm... i love my friends...i do...but i tell you one thing...our friends are human...fullstop. this is a very sensitive issue and i know a lot of my friends are reading...i'm not saying everybody is bad...but i learned it the hard way..u could only trust yourself and ur family...but hey..i'm not perfect either..i've been at both sides...just equally the same...what u give u get back no?

what i'm getting here is make the decision for yourself..not because someone told you to or not to...at the end of the day..its ur life ur living..not ur parents, not ur husbands and definitely not ur friends...if u are down..would ur friends be the one handing u money? i dont think so..so why listen to them?

business is hard.yes. i am not denying that..its not that u keluarkan modal and puffff...ur super duper rich...u want to be rich..u have to earn it...nothings easy...SPM is hard...ur seniors tell u SPM susah...do u drop out of school? decide to not take the exam? no. u study. u study day and night.do extra class.do extra excersize so u could score and get good results...college and degree is even harder...do u decide not to go to college? no...u work ur ass of on assignments and exams so u could get that segulung ijazah...WORK is stressful!!! do u not work and goyang kaki kat rumah?? no right? u wake up in the morning..go to work..get bambooed by ur manager...but yet u still go to work....rightt??

why?? because c'est la vie! that is life...u do what u must..not what u want...

i just dont get the negative people...so loud and fast putting down other people who wants to do more in life...who wants to have more in life...

but i guess thats the beauty of life...having different opinions..having different emotions..having different everything from others...klu sama jer tak colorful plak hidup kita...

i think ive typed a lot already...i cant tell coz i'm using my blackberry and its so hard to go up and down...hence the typing errors..anyways..cam dah mengantuk...i hope i could sleep lepas ni..klu tak..maybe another entry?


lol!




love,
aisyah samsudin

organized.

bought a rm5 container from Daiso..and turned this.....

into this.....

HAPPY! :)

love,

aisyah samsudin

maxi skirt for sale

eversince I made the maxi (circle) skirt, everyone tanya amek tempahan tak...at the time no..sbb i couldnt find material yg sesuai nak buat..if nak buat guna the same material like mine - silk crepe...mau sehelai rm200..lagi skrg ni harga silk dah naik 30% .. sbb yg circle skirt tu uses 4.5 meters! sbb itu mahal.....but if ur willing to pay, i can quote harga for u :)

even now, nak cari material yg elok dengan flow yg cantik...mmg susah sbb yg nice materials sume mahal....plus...i had to find a different patern untuk reduce the usage of the fabric so boleh bagi harga yg berpatutan...

so i found this fabric..takdelaa murah...but cantik n ok laa the price...not too hard on the wallet...and i found a different patern...i think its called the princess cut...

so now...I've made 9 pieces to sell ( I obviously took one for myself!) hee...

details :

size : free size but i think should fit size 8-12 uk

length = average of 35.5 inch

colours : pink, blue, brown, maroon, peach

price : rm89 ( + postage rm6)

peach - 2 available

brown - 1 available

1 reserved - pending for payment

blue - 2 available

maroon - 2 available

1 available

pink - 2 available

anything just sms or inbox me k!

escallonia08@yahoo.com

019-2710102

i'll try take a picture of myself wearing the skirt..nnti upload lain..insyaAllah...




love,
aisyahsamsudin

I've tried other ways u know...

people assume. just because I'm selling and wearing PB and promoting PB, I havent tried every other way to lose weight. so I dont understand. well you are wrong. Its not just now that I battled with my weight issue. It has been forever! haha..ok laa not forever...but it sure seems like forever...

during high school dulu mmg rasa nya takde weight issues..I was very active in sports. plus anyone yg pernah training ngan KL basketball team confirm takkan gemok nyer at the time... 3 hours non stop of running, shooting, dribbling..sumpah masa tu rasa nak pengsan..opss..lari topic jap..so anyways...maybe ade laa kejap weight issues masa rehat jap nak focus on PMR and SPM..but we always laughed it off...yelaa dah biasa ade toned muscles satgi flabby jap sini sana...but we or I never took it seriously..

masa matrics I was at my heaviest ( masa anak dara) which was 62kg! but I dont know why but I didnt seem to care...or I never thought of trying to lose weight...my guy friends masa tu siap panggil me Raksaksa Gordon..everytime I was coming their way...they will go..."Raksaksa Gordon dah datang.." siap kembungkan pipi and stomp stomp kaki...seriously..no kidding... I cant remember if I was offended ke tak...but I do remember doing nothing about it..I was just happy eating and eating and eating...honestly...makanan paling sedap  I've tasted is all in Utara...so blame the good food that made me a Raksaksa Gordon..but tu laa...again..I didnt really care...

sampai laaa sampai habis matrics..my cousins are like super skinny..so bila jumpa my aunties..they will all comment about my weight..masa tu dah rasa pressure sikit...pastu ayah pun same...he started to comment on my weight...and started to control my food intake..asal nak tambah nasi jer..die kata jgn..cukup..then tak bagi makan egg yolk..bagi makan yg putih telur jer..and coklat was a no no... I am dead serious... I was 19 then and my father controlled what I ate!!! klu pk balik...masa tu ade laa jugak rase sedih...but now I am so glad he did that coz masa tu baru timbul kesedaran I needed to do something...takleh biar jer...and bila tanya balik my guy friends..sumer ckp...thats not only advice from a father's perspective, but also from a guys perspective... honestly, I have more guy friends than girls masa dulu...and I hang out with them like all the time..so mmg bnyk sembang..and almost ALL cakap that it is important for a girl to jaga badan..... now you see why I strongly believe no matter what my husband tells me, I must stay in shape.. because the advice I got was not from a book...not from the internet or from people yg nak jual slimming product ..but from lelaki sendiri... of course not all husbands akan ckp to ur face if u lost ur shape.. lagi2 pada wife yg super sensitive (seperti saya) but it doesnt mean kita boleh abaikan and biarkan mcm tu ajerr... eyh...i think dah lari topic ni..

anyways..

so kat uni, I started to cut down food (it was sooooo hard at first!! again..makanan Utara is the BEST!) .. diet laa konon...but takdelaa tegar sangat...on and off..on and off... until one day, one of my guy friend said to me

"ko ni ecah..kata diet, aku tgk tak kurus2 pun..."

panngggg.... kan dah kene skali.... I was so sore with him...rasa nya tak ckp ngan die kot for a few weeks..

BUT..it was true...everything he said... sebabnya... diet on off...mmg laa tak jadi...takde disiplin.... buat ape pun takde disiplin mmg tak jadi...

so i started to go to the gym (ade free gym kat UUM) every tuesday and thursday hari for girls only, so i went to the gym those 2 days.. lagi 3 hari i will go to sauna or go jogging at the track...food intake jaga giler..i only had ikan bakar for lunch (no rice) and tomyam for dinner (no rice also) ..that went on for 2 month pastu cuti sem...kat rumah pulak since takde gym, I dressed up and danced to Britney Spears punya songs for exercise..bab nak control makan tu susah sket sbb kat rumah mak masak sedappp kan...so i just tried to take sikit jer rice and lebihkan lauk.... or to stay away from food, pergi window shopping from 10am till 6pm..tak sentuh makanan..just mineral water..so kira jalan for 6 hours dalam shopping mall tu considered as exersice :) .. and my effort paid off.... balik jer uni for the next sem...terkejut budak2 laki tu tgk...especially yg sound me tu laa kan.... so I tried to stick to my routine...gym, sauna, ikan bakar n tomyam or sup sayur.. so i stayed in shape..

Uni was easy! 

then start kerja...

masa ni mcm lupa diri jap...dah start pegang duit sendiri...sat sat makan sushi...then pasta...asal keluar jer makan..kluar malam makan...then dok kat ofis 9 jam depan computer...sat sat amek biskut..sat sat amek kopi...sat sat cari makanan.....mmg let loose...nak exercise sampai rumah kol 7 tu otak dah penat...kol 830 dah tido...weekends kluar dating so mmg takdelaa nak exercise kan ;p ...tak sampai 2 month jeans pun dah muat....

pulakkk...

nak diet takde motivation...and susah nak tahan diri kan dah pantry penuh ngan food ;p and nescafe!!!

then nak kahwin.... baru laa sedar diri jap....takkan laa nak gemok kan masa kahwin....so I started a new routine...

breakfast jer makan oats, lunch makan bekal steam fish yg buat pagi2 kat rumah or if tak sempat makan carrot or apple yg dah stok siap2 kat peti ais ofis, dinner minum air, then lari on the treadmill for 45 minutes, all suit up so peluh lagi bnyk....minum air banyk2 then tido....so tak rase nak makan....it went on sampai kahwin... occasionally makan jugak nasik....but 2 month before kahwin tuh mmg tak makan rice/sweets/nescafe...

dapat laa berat idaman >>> 50kg!!

dah kahwin >>>>> lagi susah nak diettt!!! habis, suami makan takkan kita nak tengok jer kan...pastu takkan sbb kita nak diet suami nak kene diet jugak kan...plus bahagia tahap langit ke tujuh kan...maka itu laa dalam masa 4 month naik 14 kilos!!

BOHHHH...

masa ni nak diet dah MALAS... i mean.... takkan sampai mati nak diet kann...mmg taklaaaa....i love food...and rewarding myself  once a week cam rasa tak berbaloi....erti kata lain...dah PENAT nak diet n tahan makan or eat healthy...oats and salads and small portions are tiring...

nak exercise pulak..hmm...mcm ni laa... keluar kerja 645am, sampai rumah 7-8pm..masak untuk husband..makan...dah kol 930.. basuh baju, lipat kain, kemas sini sana...dah tak terpk nak exercise...when doing nothing of the above..all we want ot do is cuddle in front of the TV with mr hubs sampai tido.. i am just being real here... this is the truth...bukan excuse taknak exercise...tapi itulaa...the reality..

so, masa tu baru teringat psal corset yg mak pakai tu...then tgk plak ade member jual...trus tak PK ape dah... i dont want to control makan...exercise..not yet...so PB jer laaa..

in one month turun 3 kgs... then pregnant...so babai laa to PB..and hye hye to the eating-for-two excuse.... sepanjang pregnancy makan mmg tak hengat...dok pk..bila lagi kan nak makan mcm tu...by the time nak bersalin tu berat dah 80kgs!! giler kan

pas bersalin....the only thing i did to lose weight is pakai PB and now + lactolite...coz bila breastfeed ni takde diet sgt...plus siapa yg breasfeed tau laa...pas BF jer trus lapar ...lepas pam susu jer lapar...so no diet....nak exercise....hehehehee...balik rumah nak main ngan baby jer...tak ingat ape dah...

so people..... I know what its like to control makan, i know what its like to exercise... been there done that.... so when I say PB is the easiest way FOR ME..for now.....i really mean it.... sbb memang nampak the results bila pakai PB and minum lactolite...

I'm not saying all this because I am selling the product

I am saying this because I am wearing and using the product and it works

but ape2 pun it all depends on yourself

if you feel like you have the time to maintain exercising and going to the gym....go for it (this is the best choice pun! I admit that)

if you feel like you have the will power to control eating...by all means...i have total respect for you

but you have to stick to your choice and routine...

for me...PB works the best for me..and its MY choice... :) 

and the most important thing.... at least I am trying / doing something for my own benefits

bukan nak condemn jerrrr.... kritik ajer.... just because ur so lazy to do any of the above urself...

you want to be fat...thats ur choice....jgn dok condemn org sbb nak kurus or jaga body for mr hubby.. :)

btw, anybody yg nak penjelasan lebih lanjut about PB...inbox me or sms me 0192710102

I am happy to help

ps: never tried diet pills tho. tak pernah terbukak hati kot?

love,

aisyah samsudin

 

like father. like son.

set-up

and..... snap...!!

Tok Sam gave him our old camera (broken of course!) for Aqil to play with :)

love,

aisyah samsudin

didnt remember i uploaded this on youtube..







smile :)


love,
aisyah samsudin

aqil mengamuk

you can hear me laughing..not cruel..just funny!





love,
aisyah samsudin

i cant waittttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Cant believe that tinggal another 15 days jer till Hong Kong!!!!!!!!

I know for some..alaa...HK jer pun...but for me.. ITS 4 DAYS OF FOC EVERYTHING!!!!

a honeymoon i wished for..every single thing paid for

The Flight

The Hotel

The Meals

The Tour

EVERYTHING is already paid for by the company.....klu g melancong sendiri...semua pun budget2 kan..but not this time...everything VVIP...

Flight naik MAS

Meals kat restaurants yg makanan kompom semua sedap2

Tour 4 days - 1st day F&E kot, 2nd day - whole day in Disneyland (ticket masuk disneyland all inclusive) , 3rd day - shopping at few famous places to shop in HK , 4rd day - tak ingat..heeee... ;p

and the Hotel... Disneyland Hotel !!!! I've heard so many good things about it!! 3 nights at a 5 STAR hotel!!!! FREE~!!!!! 

and paling best.... with my HUSBAND....!!!! (no aqil!) 

dah lama tak berdua jer...and i believe its important for every married couple yg dah ade anak untuk spent time just berdua... masa ni laa nak layan husband habis2an kan...klu tak asek anakkk jer yg jadi no 1.. ;)

and going on a trip not using a cent of your money or your husbands? Score!!! 

did i mention... 5 STAR HOTEL ??? Score!!!

TAK SABARNYAAAA!!!!!

Next FOC trip is Venice people!!!!! Jom laaa sama2 pergi...Italy kot!! Free Of Charge !!!!!

love,

aisyah samsudin

re-use

hubby bila tang baju amat cerewet..not that cerewet it must be branded or what... cerewet meaning i-want-quality-and-well-fitted-clothes-that-cost-below-rm20 kind of cerewet..quality means, kain sedap and sejuk...cutting lawa...something yg susah nak cari below rm20...seriesly..no kid!

normally baju die semua die beli/pilih sendiri..and if i buy any tshirt for him yg die tak berkenan..mmg dok terabai laa dalam almari tu..

like this one...dah 2 years tak bersentuh abb katanya kain tshirt ni panas...

maka...daripada membazirkan...terhasil laa ini.....

aqil pun is getting bigger (and taller) by day...so mmg bagus laa ade old tshirts yg boleh diguna-pakai semula.. ;)

jimat pun jimat :) 

tutorial dari rookiemoms

love,

aisyah samsudin

sneak peak!

love,
aisyah samsudin