picnic with the Omarians

just came back from ikea. hehe..

dragged hubs dengan alasan "mase pantang 2 bulan tak kuar rumah.."

so, mase berjalan habis2an... but then lasted only for 1+ hour..letih.. ;p

got myself these...

they are just so many to chose from [old patterns restocked].. me likey! ;)

i see bags...and more bags... ;)

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had a blast this morning at lake garden...

the "Omarians" picnic..of course!!!

lets let the pictures do the talking k..

the food preparation

eating time!

poyo jer pki kasut..tak jog pun! haha!

and then the activities..

teh lead the aerobic...

mom sgt bersungguh2 ye!

cippa was so excited..tagging and running... kak syu was laughing so hard sampai berguling2!!

acara : lari bawa pisang dalam sudu! [?]

passing the pisang

wa steady jer..

cu, gambate!

tizah..ur not suppose to hold the banana!! ehem2!

aye..

teh and kak syu was the last runners...who won eyh? lupa..

next game : batman, superman, spiderman, ultraman

aksi superman!!!!

realize all the games were played by the aunties [and some cousins sbb nak cukupkan korum]

then where were all the anak2 buah??

on the tikars...laughing their hearts out looking at their motherss.. [but not embarrassed eyh!!]

and the more younger generations?

of course at the taman mainan... tak dan ape dah lari g sana dulu..

group photo!!

and family photo [not in picture: abang - sleeping on the couch at home, atif - at school, menantu - taking the picture! ;) ]

i super duper love my family..they are just the best...especially the aunties...when you're with them, you tend to forget they are in their 40's and 50's .. the way they talk, laugh, gossip [mind you..not the usual org tua punya gossip, today was about suri cruise's punya wardrobe, and about brad n jolie!] are like teenagers , they even know the latest hip song on the radio.. maybe not the words but..still....me sendiri pun tak updated cam tu..haha ;p serious best and sporting...!!! ok enuf..kang kembang kang... ;p

balik umah trus tido sampai kol 4!! padahal bukan buat ape pun...dudukkkk aje.. ;p ingat nak berjalan but hehehe...sampai2 trus makan and that was it...tak larat sbb penuh sgt...

k laa nak tido dah ni...gudnite people! xoxo!

me at 36++ weeks! ;)

xoxo

DIY : Baby blanket (by request)

today I made this.

i promised my reader to show how I make the baby blanket...so..here it goes..

[sorry because the pictures are blur..took using my phone camera..kenot find where mr hubs put the memory card...just hope you guys understand my writings... ;p]

so firstly, here's the patern i did for my blanket. you can always mix n match and change according to ur preference.

what you will need

for the middle part: 6" x 6" cotton = 35 pieces (mix colours according to your patern)

borders: 34" x 5 " cotton = 2 pieces

44" x 5" cotton = 2 pieces (colour according to patern)

back: 44" x 34" = 1 piece

Scissors

Thread

Sewing machine (you could hand sew, but will take longer time to finish lorr)

pins (to secure you pieces when you sew)

** the printed cotton = rm29/3 meters from ikea (enuf for blanket, bedsheet, pillow n bloster case)

red and yellow plain cotton = rm3/meter from Kamdar

red plain flannel = rm4.50/meter from Kamdar

1. cut all the pieces.

2. sew the 6"x6" together according to your patern using 1/2" seam allowance.

closer image after all the 6"x6" are sewn together.

3. sew the border to the finish body. again using 1/2" seam allowance.

4. fold and make a triangle at every edge. secure with pin.

5. cut excess after securing the edges.

6. place the finish front piece with the back piece together. right side together.

7. secure with pins.

8. sew the 2 pieces together. again with 1/2" seam allowance.

sew all 4 edges. make sure leave 4" opening to turn the blanket inside out.

9. turn the blanket inside out and sew the opening by hand.

10. top stitch the angle and around the border.

something like this.

and voila!!! your blanket is done!!!! ready for your little precious to use. but do remember to wash first yee!! ;)

very the simple right?

happy trying!!

xoxo

2 dinner. 2 places. 2 themes. 1 birthday.

me and hubs both had our company dinner last Saturday.

His at Sunway Hotel. Mine at Putrajaya.

His theme was Rock. Mine was Masquerade.

Which one did we go?

He went ti his. I went to mine.

Hehe.

He was on the commitee, so obviously he was obligated to go to his.

I on the other hand, dari dulu lagi wanted so much to go to a Masquerade theme dinner.

So, we both were single for the night ! huhu~~

and...pictures ~~

me n my neighbour, fifah

with my ex team mates ~~

we were early..

and me.....cam-whoring, before, during and after (waiting for hubs to come home)

the dinner was so-so, didnt really enjoy it much...only the live band...had the chance to dance a little..heee...yeah...dance!! i love dancing, but i dont go clubbing..so this is the place where i can show my moves~~ hahaha... tapi selang2 3-4 lagu laaa...then dok lepak tepi jer...holding my belly... ;p

when hubs came back with pictures..i kinda regretted going to mine..sbb nampak happening giler..his bos was super sporting...with the wig, and the tattoo skin sock, the makeup...dasyat!!! then ade red carpet, with a backdrop for cam-whoring...bestttt!!!!!... no pictures tho... hubs tak kasik..huhu...

but well..whats done is done... I got a cooler doorgift tho...

my own personalized hand wax!!! how cool is that..?? ;)

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yesterday was my birthday. didnt do anything special. with all the baby preparation, and the house moving, didnt feel of the necessity of celebrating..plus, who wants to be reminded of getting old kan?? hehehe...

but i did get tons of birthday wishes via sms and fb ... thanks guys... you guys are just so sweet.. ;)

annnnnddddd....

i got a birthday/belated wedding gift from my aunts and uncles...

i superrrrrr love!!! wanted this so so so much...but..hehe..kedekut nak beli sendiri... ;p i grew up watching tok ajah cook in pots similar to these...so..obviously mmg nak sgt2 kan....but i didnt expect sesape nak bagi kann....so dear aunties and uncles....thannnnkkkkkk youuuu!!!!! you are my angelss.... ;)

cant wait to start cooking.....hmm...biler laa nak masuk umah baru ni...

xoxo

bedrest n bedding?

on mc for 2 days after discharged last tuesday.

suppose to be resting.

managed to get some rest yesterday. lying in front of the tv. doing nothing.

but today. i was restless. n bored to death. [rase nk g keje pun ade.boleh?]

so i made my self busy and did what i do best..

menjahit!! ;)

and finally, after hours of measuring and cutting and sewing... i manage to finish little A's first bedding set! (selepas tertangguh berapa lama ntah..hehe)

from left: pillow case (the pillow is the latex type, thats why very lebar n nipis..) , bolster case, blanket and fitted bedsheet. [not in picture: cot bumper - 1/2 finish coz kain tak cukup..hehe]

the blanket. i super love this one..rase nak buat untuk diri sendiri jerr..hehe

hmm..from the corak, can tell eyh boy or girl?? hehe.. i think its unisex..boy or girl..both can use..right? ;)

and now... my back hurtsss like crazy!!!!!! :( :( :(

i think i gotta take 10 day rest before i can start on the next project.. [kain berlambak lagi weyhh..biler ntah nak buat...huhu]

xoxo

false alarm!

So I was running from one team to the other yesterday morning..the usual stuff..finishing my work, checking my emails, learning new task..

When suddenly..eh eh..apsal basah sluar aku nihhh...went to the toilet..wet.yes. Blood.no. Hmmm..ape yeh?

Went out asked kak fiza, she was..eyh..g check kat clinic.. I was. Why aaa?? No need laa...normal kot..lagipun its still early..baru 34 nk masuk 35w..

But she insisted me to call hubs..so I called..and he came..

He arrived. Blur. Nk g mane nih??

Called mom the first time. She said clinic ok.

Then she called back..go hospital trus laaa..

And since PPUM is the nearest..pergi laa..

Doctor check said everything was ok. Alhamdulillah.but why I was wet. I've yet to know..

And now I'm here on the hospital bed. Spent the night. Waiting for my scan today. What time I dunno.

But what I do know..

-the lady beside me went into labour at 3am..I heard the nurse came and check every one hour..heard her breathing was going faster..then heard the doctor came in..measuring her opening I guess coz I heard 8cm 8cm after that..and boy...reality hit me..I never thought about labor pain before this..tapi setelah mendengar sume tu..baru terase kecut perut sket..huhu..baru terbayang video yg pernah dilihat dizaman uni dulu..oh my..horror...the way the baby comes out..then the cutting..the sewing..alamakkkk..ngilu nyerrrr...tulis ni pun dah rase ketaqqqq...

Adoiiiyaaaa...

Anyways..I met my cousin whom I've not met for how many years already..the last time was like what 8-10 years ago?? Yeah..what a terrible cousin I am! I only read her blogs for her updates..hehe..turns out she's a doctor here..a gynea..lerrrr...klu tau awal2 I would have bombed her with 1001 Qs about pregnancy mase tgh blur2 dulu..nways..we chatted a bit...asked her sedikit sebanyak that I was curious about..then she had to go bcoz she was oncall that night...and duhhh...lupa nak amek die nyer number!! Silly!!! Kak ezra, if ur reading..please..can I have ur number..? Hehehe...

Hmmm...dunno what to write..I'm just damnnnn bored right now...taktau nak buat ape...duk baring jer from yesterday...cm nak pecah kepala...

But ape2pun..I'm glad its just a false alarm...hehehe...alhamdulillah...still too early for this little one to come out.. ;)






Xoxo.

tagged by lil sister ;)

Its 415am.since I still couldn't sleep..I tot it'll be fun to do this.

25 Random Things .

Rules :

Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you.

1. As much as people think I love the colour pink (which I do), I love white even more. ;)

2. Experiencing the most painful backache I've ever had in my whole life right now.

3. Love Love Love my family. And by family I mean all..my parents,siblings,aunts n uncles,cousins,my inlaws...every single one of them. I love!

4. Little A is wrestling inside me now. Adehh.

5. Gadget freak. Very stingy when it comes to clotes,handbags,shoes and what not. But gadget?? I can go without eating for a month just to save money to buy myself a new gadget. (Diff people diff passions right?)

6. Think. Nope. Knows little sister is a wayyyyy better writer..she can write I tell ya! Me? Huhu..be it in english or bm. I suck! Its just all over.

7. Just switched off the AC. Freezing...

8. Miss basketball like crazy!!!!!!!! S.C.U.D go fight win!!!

9. Heard mommy going down. Hmm.. Coffee at 4 mom? Hehe..

10. Started sewing at the age of 9. From outfits for my barbie doll collection to batu seremban. Once made a mermaids tail (obsessed with The Litlle Mermaid that time). Love sewing till now. ;)

11. Just came out of the bathroom.haha.

12. Misses dear hubs so much..

13. Accident-prone. Goshh..I couldn't make a day without bumping into something!! Hehe..I've had stiches, burnt, fell down a bicycle once and torn the entire skin of my right cheek!! Twisted ankle is a norm. And the list goes on..huhu..

14. Owes cousin syuhaida like 5 gifts!! Hehe..yes I remember...just dunno what to get u laa cousin..u got everything already!! Hahaha

15. 15 down..10 more to go... Uhhhhh...

16. Got another hour to go before I get up for work..why can't I sleeepppp?!?!?! Pfttt..

17. Is very grateful for everything that mom n dad has done for me..I keep thinking more and more of their sacrifices during my pregnancy..how I wish I could give my baby everything that mom n dad ever gave me...thanks mom.thanks dad!

18. Penakut! I'm scared of ghosts! I don't watch scary movies..or I try to avoid watching any coz if I do.I'd have nightmares for daysss!!!!serious!

19. 34 weeks pregnant. 6 weeks to go...ketaq lutut weyhhh!!!

20. I usually don't have any trouble sleeping. I can lie down anywhere and zZZzzz in matter of seconds...hubs is so jealous of me..he has a hard time to get sleep at night..and end up terkebil2 until 3 in the morning..which explains why its hard to wake him up in the morning..poor hubs.

21. Uuuuu..my eyes are half closed.shud I stop now and continue later? Hmmm.. Yes.. ;) nitey nite!

22. In fifah's car..on the way to work..its sure going to be rough day..can hardly keep my eyes open even now..how?

23. Mom says I'm a drama queen..huh..I have to disagree.well.ok.maybe a little..huhu..mothers sure knows best right? Lol!

24. Is very very very hungry right now..wish I could bring my toaster to office..toasted bread is all I can swallow ..

25. Not going to tag anybody specific. Just everyone who reads this blog of mine. Thank you very much. ;)






Xoxo

frustrated.

Am now lying in bed. Wide awake at 3am in the morning. (Padan muka siapa suruh tido kol 8 kan!)

Called hubs told him I have a really bad backache. (He's away for audit btw) and his first response was

"Is it time already..?"

Whaaattt??? No laa sayang...I'm only in my 34th week..hehe..this backache is because baring ats katil lama sgt kott..

so anyways..work was super stressful yesterday. Had my personal evaluation with my manager n sr acc. and I ended up walking out the room in tears! Embarassing much!!! Urghh..

Seems like my manager wasn't satisfied with the things I wrote in my evaluation form..no effort as she said...but tell me..I'm juggling 2 teams now..coming as early as 715 in the morning just to make sure my task in my last team is settled before lunch and my new team is now having their month end closing which is super hectic n have to give my fullest attention to everything since the person I'm replacing is resigning very soon..so I must learn the task by heart before she goes or not I'm super dead..and this is my only chance to really understand everything...

Summore my morning sickness is back..I'll just vomit out everything I eat..especially rice and now I can only live on eating roti bakar..which I feel is not enuf coz I'm constantly hungryyyyyy...

How on earth could I concentrate on a 6 page form, with all the above..I only had 15 minutes to do the form before I passed it.. And she expects me to praise myself when I know I didn't did a really good job last year with all my mc's n emergency leaves n all..yes..I know I should think more of myself..not saying that I'm not a good worker..but just saying, by my own standard, I know I could have done more..she said she thinks high of me but when me myself don't think enuf of myself, makes her dissapointed...bla bla bla... Then I dunno why..tears came running down...urghhh...buat malu jer..its not like I wanted to meraih simpati or what but I just couldn't stop.. I guess with everything going on..and my body was really exhausted with work..tu yg jadi mcm tuh..but still...

Excuses.excuses.whatever.

I'm just just so tired and frustrated right now. I wish hubs were here to say everything is ok..sobbss..


*Could stress really cause early labour??? Hmm...mintak laa jauh..*

**teruknya backache ni..adoiiiiii...



Xoxo.

tra la la la la

* work has been super super duper hectic. Juggling 2 teams in one day. 1st half at old team.struggling to finish one day task in half day (luckily I'm super veteren in doing my task..sap sap soi maa..haha..yelaa tu..), 2nd half at new team..trying so hard to learn everything I can before the person I replace resigns..not easy since everything is totally different from what I did at my previous team..but hey..when there's a will, there's a way right?!

* went for ultrasound last week..alhamdulillah baby sihat..weights at 1.8kg..dunno if normal or not..but doc said there's no specific statistic in Malaysia for normal or not..it all depends on the mother's size..hmmm... ;p

* Tok Ajah was at Mom's last week..sedih when I think of her..she gets easily confused now...was sitting beside her, teman her lipat baju (bukan dera tauuuu!! She insisted on folding the clothes!) , I was sewing my baby's blanket,,she keeps repeating the same story..all I could do was giving different response everytime she repeats the same story..sometimes the facts of her story are not so accurate..but don't tell her that..dah kene dah.. "Atuk tau laaa anak atuk.." ..ayah said layan kan aje..I wish I could be a better grandaughter and do more than just listen to her stories..but then again...if that makes her happy and not think too much about things yg membebankan..I'm willing to hear her stories 1000 times sekalipun..I dun mind..

* went to e@curve to find hubs naruto headband (I am not telling why he needs it..its just so..hmmm..nvm..hehe) well anyways..went to ikea after that..bought summore fabrics!!!! Urgh!!!I swear I gotta keep away from fabric stores..its just so addictive I tell you!!!in my defence..the new cotton collection were so cute!!! I manage to stop myself at 2 diff paterns..if it wasn't because this month my duit dah semput..kompom amek all the paterns yg available!!!huh!!!

* went out with mom n lil sis dgn niat nak beli her school stuff..ended up in ariani n jakel n borong cam tak ingat dunia (that would be mom k..not me..like I said..semput..;p) anyways..didn't get anything from lil sis back to school list siang tu..so took her out that night with hubs to buy all she needed..was litterally crying and almost sat down on the floor at giant because my legs n ehem ehem were soooo in pain because bnyk sgt berjalan..realized that mmg betul dah sarat sebenarnya diri ini..honestly..I don't feel "sarat" mentally..takpi takleh deny yg mmg sarat dahhhhhh...heheeheee..

* stretchmark kat perut dah macam peta dunia...huduuuuhhhhhh!!!!(Padan muka! Siapa suruh malas2 sapu losyen..). Hubs was like.. "So...??" (Tak memahami betul emosi diri ini.huh) ..I was like texing my fren kat uk to help me buy the elemis oil as soon as the 1st sign of stretchmark showed..hope she can post for me..klu tak have to find other alternative..mahal sket pun takpe laa..sobsss...

* hubs bought me a toilet floor mat because I keep on TERgelincir when I take my shower or amek wuduk..kesian at the sinki, sket lagi nak tercabut sbb cannot stand me hanging on to it everytime nak terjatuh..hehe..yes people.. I'm clumsy like that!!

* went baby shopping with mommy dearest on last day of YES..I have officially checked my last item in my list n now all my basic needs for little A dah complete..alhamdulillah... ;) thanks mommy for the baby stuff.. Tgk little A, granma syg kamu..hehehe.. ;p

* hubs installed the baby cot yesterday..alamakkk..it seems so real now looking at it nicely sitting there beside our bed.. Hmmm..haven't took the measurements for the bedsheet n side bumper yet..need to start sewing..everyone dok ckp.."Ni nampak gaya mcm bersalin awal ni.." ??? Why they say that..I dunno..but cukup 44 kali..bersalin awal sunnguh aku nanti..better be prepared huh? ;p


So that's it..its been a long and boring post..but I care not..hehe..need to write..need to write.. ;)


Opss...lil sis wants a flute (pulak dahhhhh)..student one, not the pro one..found at e-bay rm400 but seller from china..told her to find locally first..but she said all above rm1k!! Huaaa!! Yeke??? Mesti ade kot yg murah sket right?? Any idea where to get eyh?? Would appreaciate your help on this..thanks!! ;)






Xoxo

mengarut jer

one of my auntie slept over last night. she was telling how the SBP intake was this year. how the student had to apply online, then they (the school) would have to send all the application to the big guys, where the big guys would send back a list of names where the school will call the students for an interview and some tests. [fuhh..takde fullstop eyh..].. very2 different from my time... I didnt even remember if I even applied to go to SBP..hmm..nampak sgt dah tua aku nihhh..haha..

after the interview and tests and whatnot..the pengetua of the school would have the authority to chose ONLY 20% of the total student intake..so lets say, the intake for that year is 100 students, the pengetua could only chose 20 students..out of 300 students that came for the interview..tough huh..

anyways, thats not exactly the part I wanted to tell.

the interesting part was when my cousin interrupted [she's from a SBP too], and told us at her school, the candidates were required to go for a physical test and one of it was running 100 meters, which they had to reach the finish line under how many seconds she could not remember.. whoever didnt pass the test was immediately out... i was like..seriousssllyyy...??

I mean...i know physical is important..but come on..its like a bit unfair no? tak lepas lari 100 meters trus out?? i dunno laa...not everyone could run fast kan..klu ye..mcm tu sume org pun bleh jadi atlet...kan kan kannnn....i mean...buat laa points system ke ape...takde laa trus kene klua...tapi maybe laa nak senang kan keje diorang ke ape...but..hmmm....still...

but..thats not all...then my aunt add on...told me my cousin's pengetua does not like her girls to be overweight...or FAT...!!!!! ni psycho ape niii?? the girls must jaga their weight..and what they eat [or something like that] yg penting mesejnya....jgn gemuk...like wth!?!?!??!!?

first of all..they're still kids...still growing...plus...diorang tu nak kena blaja...its stressful enough for them to focus on getting good grades [anything below straight A's is not good ok!] ..pastu ni nak kene stress about how they look and what they eat lagi...??? come on laa...ape jenis pemikiran yg nak ditanamkan kat kepala budak2 ni..??? if ur not skinny ur not good??? tolonnggglllaaaa!!!!!!

cukuplaa the magazines showing skinny models...sending message to girls that you have to be skinny to look good...but for a teacher to imply something like that..?? kan ke mengarut tuh.....

ingat lagi zaman sekolah dulu, all the exams students [f3 n f5] siap ade special supper lagi...konon2 for us to have energy to study [didnt really work for me tho..after supper jer kompom tido!! haha] ..but then...we didnt have to worry about anything else except for our studies..we didnt care if we were fat or skinny or ape2 laa...we were happy...and it made it a lot easier for us to study.....ini my kazen..."my friends all the lost their exam fats...me lagi gain.." ...adoiiiii....rilek dear kazen..i didnt care about my weight until masuk uni...and trust me..masuk Uni..kompom kurus laa....ur jadual is hectic..kene berkejar g kelas...seriesly...dun worry.. ;)

hmm...i know now i'm conscious about my weight and all..but its more about staying healthy.. not so much about being skinny...hehe.. [ye laa tu...]

but i mean come on laa....these are kids we're talking about.... we should send out positive msg to them kan..???

so dear girls,

just love yourself the way you are..... ;)

*tetibe rase nak layan lagu beautiful christina aguilera...enjoy!! ;)

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, i saw debris
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay


And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

*lately ni asek emo jer...tak tau laa kenapa...hormon..?? ;p

not a very productive weekend.

i slept most of the time. pagi, tghr, ptg n mlm. [sampai headache!!]

but I managed tosqueeze in a few activities.

1st one: little sis really2 wanted to watch Avatar. I had no idea what the movie was about but I really thot it was an anime or something like that. wasnt really in the mood to watch kids stuff but being the nice sister that I am [huhu..masuk bakul angkat sendiri beb!] , I took her to watch Avatar at tgv Kepong. got the earlybird ticket, rm7 only..so ok laa..tak laa rase membazir kan for anime....but..oooohhh...I was so wrong..not only it wasnt an anime movie...it was the best movie that I've watch this year!! ten thumbs up!!! every single thing about the movie was super cool!!! planning to go watch again this thursday...3D version!!! cant wait!!! yeay!!

go go watch!!!! best gilerrr!!!

second: Me, hubs, lil sis, mom n dad attended my neighbour's wedding reception @ dewan tun rahah, menara yayasan tun abdul razak on Sunday night. the food was superb..!! me, mom n lil sis were camwhoring the whole night! haha.. n owh..the bride mesti laa lawa kan malam tu...nways...

To Kak Nani n Ramdan..

Selamat Pengantin Baru!!

Semoga bahagia ke anak cucu...insyaAllah... ;)

The newlyweds.. ;)

sweet ol' couple! hehe.. ;)

the ladies of dr sam! ;p

us ;)

[i look more like a fat lady rather than a pregnant one no?]

third: went for a family picture session at a photo-store near my parents house.. will post up the pictures later..its suppose to be ready by next week....not so excited bout the picture tho..sbb me lebarrrrr giler!!! huh!

last one: finally, after more than a month those fabrics have been put aside [again..didnt want to jinx anything!!] , I've started on my next baby project.. I'm so excited!! ;) hehe..I guess its safe to start now since I'm already in my 32 weeks.. klu kira2 normal pregnancy 38-39 weeks kan..I've only got another 6-7 weeks to finish 2 blankets, 3 bedsheets, 6 pillow cases, 4 bolster cases, 2 sets of baby cot side protector and 1 set of baby bag...hmm..sempat ker eyh..?? hehe. ;)

baby blanket-in the making!

pregnancy picture update : 31 weeks!!

xoxo